So in my time with God this morning, I was writing confession statements to help with situations that may pop up throughout my day. I wanted some scriptures to fall back on to encourage myself during those mental conflicts and I came across Colossians 1. I was looking for a certain scripture, but the words of the chapter started jumping out at me capturing my spiritual hunger. I originally wanted to talk about the Christian journey and how tough it can be using Revelation 2:13 as a guide, but since running into Colossians, I want to encourage my sisters and brothers in Christ with what I read in Colossians 1. First off, I want to say that no one is exempt from pain and sufferings and no one lives the “perfect life”. We all have our own issues, but the difference is whether you’re putting your trust in Christ alone or in the things of this world including people.
I was thinking about how this world seems cold-hearted and dark more times than often and how easy it is to get caught up in what everyone else is doing or what is popular. It’s so easy to get distracted with the things of this world and what you see in front of you. The enemy is the prince of the world who has already been judged so he has nothing to lose. With that being said, we see things “fixed up” or the “grass greener”, but really it’s really messed up. We think if we have “it” then our life will be complete. The truth is your life is complete through Jesus Christ if you chose Him to be your personal Lord and Savior. I always felt like if I had “this” then I will “do that” or if things were “this way”, then I can be “that away”, but the scriptures says, “by his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life” (2 pet.1:3). Paul said he learned the secret to being content in all things (Phil. 4:12) and my prayer has always been, “Lord teach me to be content in what I have and to be grateful” because truth is, I didn’t and don’t deserve anything but death so I need to submit this entitlement attitude to God.
Furthermore, I understand my walk with Christ is our (me and Christ) journey alone. Too many times, people give their personal opinions and personal formulas on how to live for Christ which trips us up. We then strive with our own strength and missing “their” mark and then start complaining that God is not with us or God is not answering our prayers. Don’t get me wrong, it is wise to get godly counsel (prov. 12:15) but we should not stop at godly counsel alone but go back to God and ask Him what He thinks or has to say about the situation. My motto is, take what you need and leave what you do not need from people who give you advice, but no matter what, we should always filter any advice with God especially through His word. So as you read my heart through this blog, ask God to speak with you and to guide you and show you the truth with life and what others tell you about life or advice. So here it goes…
When you grow up not feeling beautiful or feeling unwanted, you suffer from insecurity. You are scared to make a move in fear of making the wrong decision and many times you doubt you hear clearly from God. You look for others to confirm what you think God is telling you to do then you return back for them to validate and affirm your move or decision. You watch their body language or facial expression as a way to see if they approve or disprove of your decision/move. You sink further and further in the fear of the unknown, the fear of insecurity, the fear of incompetent, fear of going the wrong way, and the fear of God don’t care for you. The devil is so skilled with his lies that we believe every bit of it and we use fear as a way to “guard” our hearts when we’re making a move. I would like to say, I thank God for my deliverance. That was me, I was controlled by these fears and I didn’t make many moves because of it. But the thing that gets me the most is how God always stayed faithful to me and never let me go. He actively pursued me and fed me His word to live on and walk in His victory.
I grew up feeling unwanted so I struggle with rejection and abandonment and I lived as if I was unloved by God. I struggled to believe God really died for me and He really loved me. Yes, I knew the scripture said God so loved the WHOLE world, but the truth was, it was not personal to me. I guarantee you anyone who suffered from abandonment issues and needed that attention more likely can attest to what I am saying.You didn’t feel like you had God’s personal attention so you felt like a spot in a crowded world. I would say things like yea He died for everyone but it wasn’t just for me so He really didn’t die for me which means He really didn’t love me so I concluded that I was a mistake; that I just so happened to be a part of the group of people He loved by chance. So in my small little mind, I didn’t see the magnitude of Christ’s love for me by dying for me personally. Christ rescued me from that stinking thinking. Colossians 1:13 says, “For He rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of His dear son,” He rescued me from the enemy’s grip through His ultimate sacrifice. I am no longer a slave to fear and whenever I start to have wrong thinking, I’m choosing to depreciate what the word of God said about me. So I just want to encourage you, wherever you are mentally, really think about God’s love for you. I get it, this journey is tough and sometimes it can feel like we are walking in the desert alone, by ourselves, but that is a lie from the enemy.
If we believe God is the Creator of this world and He is everywhere at the same time, then know He knows what’s going on in your life. I use to think God didn’t care about me let alone the little things that concern me until He literally took me to 1 Peter 5:7, “ Give all your worries and cares to God, for He care about you.” It’s true, God cares about every detail of my life and He cares about every detail of your life as well. Sometimes I quote scriptures during a difficult time and it seems like the scripture is not working but truth is, the scriptures are alive and living but do we have faith to believe what the scriptures is saying or are we rubbing God like He’s a genie waiting on Him to perform magical tricks? The righteous person faces many troubles, but the Lord comes to the rescue each time (Ps. 34:19) so don’t fret and grow weary thinking you are the only one going through. You are your own testimony to God’s faithfulness on how He came through for you many times in the past.
This is my prayer for you from Colossians 1:9-10, I pray that God will give you complete knowledge of His will and to give you spiritual wisdom and understanding. Through the spiritual wisdom and understanding, you will live in a way that will honor and pleases the Lord always and your life will produce every kind of good fruit. All the while, you will grow as you learn to know God better and better in Jesus name. Need prayer? Email me at email@example.com. Have IG, follow me at in_pursuit_of_Christ for inspirational messages throughout the week. God bless you!